BECALMED

I drift through the doldrums of everyday day like a sailboat when the wind abandons her. My sails hang lifeless about me and no sparkling water laps my hull.

All that gave me heart and purpose has been stripped from me. 
I cry out to God, "Why, why, WHY?"
I beg to know what I did wrong.
Was I not grateful enough?
Did I not treasure each moment?

I grew up believing that bad things happen to bad people and good things happen to good people. That people who live an upright life are rewarded by receiving blessings. Therefore, I am ill equipped to handle bad things happening when I've been good.

The week I came to live here on Sleeping Giant Parkway, God blessed me with a beautiful new friend, a strong woman of faith. She greeted me with prayer, declared this a time of healing in my life, and today, as I wrestled through another bout of "What should I be doing?", she sent me this quote:

"God answers prayer in three ways;
He says yes, and gives you what you want.
He says no, and gives you something better.
He says wait, and gives you the best."

So, I wait.
And rest.
And receive healing.

May we all reach safe harbour!